I know now that It's been a Lie The whole time.
Time Well Wasted.
Time That I will never get back.
Things That Were said With no Conviction.
You Never Cared, Not One Bit.
I still kept coming for more even knowing nothing would happen.
I thought I saw hope but it was nothing
It feels good to get my Head out to fresh air.
I feel Clarity, as If a revelation has been set upon me.
I know when I go to sleep I'm not going to wake up as the same person.
different Monster.
I'm fine with that Because I know the truth.
But you Don't Know what I know.
and Baby... That's the best part.

Can't Wait to go to the fest! Good music, Good People, Good time to be had.


New Space station 5 album is Almost complete as far as Writing goes. just need to finish these 2 songs that are about 75% done and finish this other song. recording in November will be fun.


I'm not happy with everything yet, But I'm getting there.

This past week was very akward for me. I did a bunch of things that I didn't want to do but I guess needed to be done.

I saw my ex girl friend from 4 years ago. And she was pretty much my only girl friend since. I never really commited to any other relationship, or just didn't really care for the others. Or for the most part crashed and burned. Well back to my akward moment. I haven't seen her since I broke up with her. And she came to my house. Invading my Sanctuary. The place I come to after a hard day To relax. She came to see my mother since she had an operation. But still she never came for four years why now? If you've ever seen or read the book high fedelity I was going through a "what does this all mean" phase. Why were you at my house? Why now? And what do you want? I was busy setting up Halloween decorations so I had a distraction. Which was good she wasn't talking to me or even by me. I not going to say I miss her as a girlfriend because I still stand by why I broke up with her. But. I guess you always wonder what would it be like if you never left.

Akward moment number 2. Sunday night my close friends and I needed to have an intervetion with our friend about how he has something up his ass and what is wrong with him. After a 3 hour conversation everything got better. We are now back to our unit of awesome, a wolf pack of four.

I'm at a point in my life where I feel lost, confused, curious, and scared. I don't know what is going to happen to me in the future and where I'm going. I feel lost and need to find my way back.

I'm dying to finish writing this album can't wait to record in November. This album is going to be a good mix of happy pop/rock and melodic kinda stuff. The stuff I've been writing is pretty dark. But I'm glad I am. It's helping me cope with these demons I haven't things that bother me. I guess "I love to hate things, and hate to love other things". It's also helping get vent about some people that really hurt me. I think I really need this to keep my cool alot of people think I can keep it together really well but in all honesty I don't. I'm as fucked up as Anyone else out there.

Can't wait for the fest it's going to be sick as hell! Me and deigo are going to pound beers and sing along to all our favorite bands.

I don't know if I'm Content with my situation or unhappy? I wonder everyday if I did/ didn't do things diffrent where would I be? Would I be happier? All I know is that depression is in the air I can feel it.

I've always worn my heart on my sleeve an I consider myself an easy person to read. For the most part of anything with me it always goes back to girl problems I either do too much or too little. Never the right amount. I've never been in love. Just an idea of it. I'd write more maybe later but back to work right now.

So today I had dinner with a friend and he asked me if I have ever been in love. I told him yes. But I've never dated, kissed, and basically any of the typical stuff that people relate to with love. But yet I feel such a deep cone tion with this girl. Idk why I'm posting this, and don't care.

1:today I have trig class. Hope I can hang. Hope ratemyprofessor.com wasn't wrong.
2:day 3 of this same shit. Take down the walls there's no need.
3: got to get the ball rolling on recording the new space station 5 songs and finish the 3 song I got in the works like "the drama drop" "you lack charm" and my fav so far "midnight apology."

my arms are to short to attain what I want.
I tend to Distance my self away from everyone
Finding my self more Hollow Yet Free.
Alone Isn't sad, More of a Fresh Break.

More Dormant and just going through the motions.
No Need for medication when facing yourself.
Fighting the fear of What Could be.
Fighting the reality of what I am.
Common man, nothing more.

It may seem like a Cry for help.
but more of a Manifestation.
Feeling stronger with every word I write
Every letter as I hit the key.

I've never felt depressed, just Empty.
As If I knew something wasn't there but
tried to make it look like it.
Yet I don't feel Alone I'm sure others feel this way.

I haven't posted stuff in A long time. so here it is:

Like always I'm busy with the band. that's going good.

School started for me and I have a project in Chicago so that rules. and I'm only taking one class this semester. and I decided to wait till next year to submit for upper division.

Life is pretty good. but like always and for everyone. I could be Better.


that's it.

Mike.

The New Bayside Album Comes out Sept 30th so Here you go.
Not The Best Quality But Good Enough.

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